Off today, so rotting at home waiting to meet ariel in the evening. Since rotting at home, a lot of thoughts goes thru my mind. Started thinking am i tieing her too tight since she is still young and needs to enjoy her life to the max. So decided maybe i should give her more freedom. Although she says that i am not tieing her too tight, but who knows, maybe in the future she might think i otherwise. Or Maybe i am just too free , thats why thinking too much.
I have been thinking that whether is it that for the past 7 years, i did not really devoted into love, thats why i felt no pressure and worries during that time. And now suddenly, i am so devoted to someone, and i can't get use of thinking abt worries for this period of time. Time may tell. But i knows that everything will be better and fine in the future. Good luck to myself.
I said something to her yesterday which i regreted that i have said. I promise her that i will tell her everything, but how can i tell her that i will only tell her in 1 to 2 yrs time(something only me and her knows) and says she is too young to understand like a elderly. haiz... Thats my fault.
Mood have been unstable for the whole morning and afternoon. Don't know why, but just feel moody. But when the time is nearer to meeting her, mood became better.
My sister reply a email to me, which make me feel touched and loved. And realise that both of us will always fight all the way to achieve our common dream and goal. I love my sister!
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