L.E.O.N

Ytd i met my best friends at bishan after sending her home and we are chit chating at s11. They said that i am a changed person when i was on the phone with her. The way i talk to her and the expression, so they keep disturbing me. haha.

Ya, i realised i am a change person too because i am so enjoy in love with her. She always make me smile and feel so sweet all the time. And i always wanna tell her how much i love her but sometimes words is just not enough for me to express my love for her. Haha. =)

What i want from her is simple, i just want her to love me deeply always and stay by my side forever. And i want to be the person who shares her joy and sadness. The first to be there when she needs someone and take care of her.

{ 1:11 AM }

Ytd we bought a couple ring for each other, the ring is meant to tie each other down.. hahaha. and we are willing to be tied down by each other... =)

{ 2:27 AM }

Yeah!!!!! Man Utd finally get their first win of the season with a 1-0 against tottenham by a superb long range strike by new signing Nani after getting only 2 points for the last 3 games.
Although they played badly for this match but at least they still win..haha.

Ytd have been a wonderful day for me and her. everything is excellent for us. Our love just getting better and better after each day. haha. We just love each other so much that we knows that we love each other more than anyone else. =) .

We watch the movie Evan Almighty ytd. Not bad the movie, very funny. There's a part where the god told evan's wife that " God doesn't let two person in love with each other but god creates the opportunity for the two person to be in love with each other." Thats so true, if both of us didn't take the opportunity to express our love to each other that time.. then we won't be together so happily right now or in the future. haha =) .

Anyway, we are just so perfect for each other. haha.

{ 2:42 AM }

I finally knows what is the true feeling of worrying abt someone's safety so badly that will makes you so lost and panic, and the real relieve when you see that person is fine and alright in front of you. You just want to give the person a huge and tight hug.

{ 10:04 PM }

Nights... Something i hate and love... I love nights sometimes because i can listen to songs i like and do my own things or think of something quietly without being disturb.. but sometimes its just so torturing at night, bothering abt things until lose my sleep.

Loving someone should love who she already is and not trying to change her to who you like. And her past made her who she is now. But say is easy and doin it, is HARD. Because you want to let her be the most happy person in this planet so sometimes you will ask yourself, is she happier last time when you see her past times. Can Someone teach me how to do it?

I hate trying to change someone or keeping someone with who is not truly happy with me. I hate that feeling.

I always believe SMILE tells a person if she is really happy or just happy. Maybe i am wrong, but its just wat i believe.

Experience from the previous relationship, i realise ppl can sometimes force yourself not being your ownself and not doin wat you like to do just because you love that person and accept that person's unreasonable.

Love shouldn't be like this. This type of relationship don't last long.Love should be happy with the person you like and still doing things you like and be yourself. But most relationship doesn't happens this way.

I always feel that did i did something wrongly, but something will just cover my this strange feeling and let me continue with it. Chim right!!! haha.

Recently i just keep listening to a few same songs, maybe those songs just tells how i feel.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... Feel like screaming out...how i wish i can escape from this busy city and just stay at a beautiful beach for a few days.... I think i need to find someday to go sentosa and get a lot of sun...to let me feel life is so great again.. I love NATURE and SUNSHINE...haha.

My mood is fine, but sometimes i just think that i think too much. haha. maybe is because i just want to do everything to perfection including love, work, friendship and pushing myself too hard to the limit. Although i think a lot but i am a optimistic person, so after that i will just continue thriving for what i want. haha. =) . Right now i have a love relationship which worth me trying to keep by my side forever, so i will fight for it thru the end. Life is wonderful and lots of things and places waiting for me to explore. I have to work hard so that i can fulfill my dreams.. jia you to myself.. haha..

{ 2:42 AM }

Everything goes pretty well for the day, until the end of the day.....

I made a silly mistake in work, which i normally don't... how can this happen to me!!!!!!
I have been always so careful but just a while of careless.. this happen. so suay... feel so bad..

BAD DAY!!!! =(

{ 11:26 PM }

{ 1:46 PM }

She and me went to sunway lagoon for holiday last week.

{ 1:34 PM }

Its only one hr ago that i last blog, for this one hr, wat a boring man can do is to go ard the internet and look look see see.

But the worst thing is seeing something which shouldn't see anymore or shouldn't have even go to read it. Since boring and waiting for hair to dry, so i went to see it and thought i might not feel much as that was her past and she already belong to me. BUT!!!! I was wrong, the more i read, the more strange feelings goin thru my mind and brain. Can't explain that feeling, but its just like heart start to cramp together and a lot of thoughts goin thru the mind but don't even know wat exactly i am thinking myself. Not upset but just feel strange. Issit jealousy ? Might be. Haha.
Thats why, even boring shouldn't have went to see.

Everyone have past, but the current one just wanna surpass everything and every moment of the past.

Although with this strange feeling, but it doesn't affect my love for her at all. Its just my own problem. After a good sleep, everything will be fine. =)

{ 1:01 AM }

After a day of work, staying home having dinner with her and watching a movie can be so sweet and blissful. Although the ending of the movie is stupid. I really love being with her even doing nothing.

But she has been lack of sleep because of me, thats the only thing i feel sorry for her. What i can only do is to give her full of my love.

{ 11:56 PM }

We intended to watch simpson today and we rush to the cinema after her work but then realise its full. haha. How silly we are. But as long as i am with her, it doesn't matters at all.

After dinner, we sat somewhere, have a drink and talk thru our hearts regarding past and present. Although feel strange when hearing some of the things but feel relieved and happy by wat she said and even more confirmed that she really love me alot. haha. =) * 100 .

She told me that she had a bad thoughts which make her happy and guilty. But for me, its like honey drips into my heart. So Sweet! I hope she will not feel guilty for that because its not her fault to think that way. I will belong to her forever as long as she still loves me. I believe i will have a sweet dream today even thought i am tired. =) * 1000 .

{ 1:26 AM }

Today happen something which cause a bit of unhappiness btw us. Something which hurt my heart like a arrow shot in my chest. She explained to me and i believe she did not did it with purpose. But at that moment of time it does hurts. But everything is fine after she explained and time heals.

Maybe i am a person who needs a lot of attention and love, thats why i tend to think a lot when i don't feel it. But of course i do still love her a lot and i know she love me a lot too. Maybe its just the way we express our love affection differently. but after communicating, everything are fine or even better than before. Any unhappiness should be communicated and not hide inside, this sentence is so true.

Everytime i see her, i realise i love her even more, although sometimes i might get a bit lost when she is not beside me.

After all our love became stronger than before and understand each other even more. What a good ending after such a troubled day. Haha. =)

{ 12:12 AM }

Off today, so rotting at home waiting to meet ariel in the evening. Since rotting at home, a lot of thoughts goes thru my mind. Started thinking am i tieing her too tight since she is still young and needs to enjoy her life to the max. So decided maybe i should give her more freedom. Although she says that i am not tieing her too tight, but who knows, maybe in the future she might think i otherwise. Or Maybe i am just too free , thats why thinking too much.

I have been thinking that whether is it that for the past 7 years, i did not really devoted into love, thats why i felt no pressure and worries during that time. And now suddenly, i am so devoted to someone, and i can't get use of thinking abt worries for this period of time. Time may tell. But i knows that everything will be better and fine in the future. Good luck to myself.

I said something to her yesterday which i regreted that i have said. I promise her that i will tell her everything, but how can i tell her that i will only tell her in 1 to 2 yrs time(something only me and her knows) and says she is too young to understand like a elderly. haiz... Thats my fault.

Mood have been unstable for the whole morning and afternoon. Don't know why, but just feel moody. But when the time is nearer to meeting her, mood became better.

My sister reply a email to me, which make me feel touched and loved. And realise that both of us will always fight all the way to achieve our common dream and goal. I love my sister!

{ 5:00 PM }

I started this blog because of a gal name Ariel which i met one month ago. life have been so unexpected for the last one month. I never expect i will meet a gal which i will love her so much and so deeply. My whole world had been surrounded with her face, her eyes, her laughers, her voice, her smell and just everything abt her. I am so glad that she loves me as much. Although there's a lot of obstacles, we are still able to get together on 10 August 2007. Its 9 days since we are together but it seems we are together for 9 months. She makes me forget of all the troubles i have when i see her, makes me laugh, feel sweet in my heart with what she says and let me realise what true love is all about. We gave each other so many promises as though we have been together for a reallly long time. My love for her have been increasing dramatically like a rocket shooting into outer space.

Because of her, i gave up a 6-7 years stable relationship. i feel so guilty and sorry towards my ex-girlfriend. She likes me since 13 years old and finally got together with me when we are 18. I hurt her so badly when i told her that i fell in love with another gal. 12 years... 12 years is the amount of time she spend on me and in the end what i can only tell her is "I sorry"...... I feel that i am such a bad guy and maybe the worst guy she will ever met. Hope she will find someone who truly loves her and care abt her.

Because of this, i feel that some friends start moving apart from me and my sister start to feel that i have forgotten the our common dreams and plans. I feel so pressured about all this when i am alone. My sister sent me a email to let me know what she feel and i replied her of what i feel and i still cherish our common dreams and goals and still fighting towards it.

I am not sure if i am right to make this decision of choosing to be together with ariel in other ppl's view but she is what i want in my life, who i really love and wanted to be with. And i won't have any regrets.

{ 5:54 AM }